I have yet to find Christmas this year. Yes I've heard music on the radio and watched certain movies that Aaron and I always watched, but it's just not right. It just doesn't seem worth it without Aaron.
Christmas was his favorite time of year. We'd start listening to Christmas music in October! Every year I decorated the house from head to toe. I wanted it to be bright and colorful and full of the holiday because it made Aaron happy. Without him here, I just can't find a reason or point to do it. It's gone from something I loved to do for someone I love to something that's just another thing I'd have to clean up and put away if I got it out.
I feel like Cindy Lou Who from The Grinch
"Where are you christmas
why can't I find you
why have you gone away
My world is changing
I'm rearranging
does that means Christmas changes too
where are you Christmas
do you remember
the girl you used to know
You and I were so carefree
and nothing easy
did Christmas change
or just me"
http://youtu.be/tc7XixGmQt8
I know this is short. I just don't know what else to say.
