Today a new stretch of waiting has started. Aaron had a follow up MRI today to find out if his treatment is working. It's hard to know what results to root for. If treatment is working then that means we get more time together but he has a longer harder road of more treatment and side effects. If treatment isn't working then he'll stop getting the meds and possibly be more comfortable, but I'll have less time with him. It's not even a case if the lesser evil. Neither one is good. Either way I loose the one I love at some point.
So this week, I"ll go to work and pretend all day that nothing is wrong and life is just great. There's no reason our clients need to know the details of the difficulties we go through. They have their own problems. But after work when I come home I am once again overwhelmed with the reality of what's going on. Don't get me wrong. I couldn't ask for a more amazing husband and companion. He's going through all this crap to be with me. He is more brave than I can imagine and he is my hero.
It's just so incredibly unfair that he has to deal with all this. I know what I have to go through emotionally but I have no idea the difficulty he's having.
So if you see either one of us this week and we seem to be on auto pilot we're just playing the waiting game.
Thanks for trying to write out your thoughts and feelings here. I know it is so hard. We think about you, talk about you and pray for you constantly. It has affected our daily lives also. It's hard to see your kids struggle and want to make everything o.k. Only God can do that. Just keep trusting HIM. We love you both. Constantly hoping and praying for you, Love, Mom and Dad
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